b.

I saw her that night

dance in the rain humming in sorrow

clung onto the hope she though it was true

yet she fell everytime she almost grab it

the night seems to laugh at her

the idea of our bodies were fashioned by stone

persist by any harm and danger that came like storms and tide

yet we're just a layer of skins cover the bones

and we bleed 

and we smile

what's the point of love when there is no hope?

what's the point of hope when there is nothing to give in?

so darling cover your body as the night come in

as the world never be the same

as we bleed

as we smile

a.

the air I breath is the same air you breath
the sun that shine
the rain that pour down to our skin
yet why we're so different in idea
on love
in life

I try to catch up with you
but everytime I do
I will fall down as the earth cave in
pull me down inside.
God how I hate it
every minute every second of my days.

how I want to tell you
that I miss every inch of your figure
your voice.
and every single day I spent with you
and how I regret as I live without you

love is cruel
she's hold a knife behind her back
and without a sign she sliced our heart till it bleed
and yet we adore her

we adore the whore.

need to write something.
need a new haircut.

my life is in a mess.
fuck up big time.
i don't know what to do.

tell me.
is there a place where i can find peace.
just me without people i know.
need a new air to breath

bongok jap

aku cuma rindu.

gadis bertudung ungu itu.

yang aku pendam tak luah.

yang dia aku tak tahu.

ewahhh!

tuhan.
aku mohon ampun.
andai aku khilaf.
andai aku meragukan Engkau.
atas percaturan ke atas diri ini.

*cucuh rokok*

*hembus dalam*

bila malam.
aku mula berfikir.
tentang dunia dan isinya.
mahu celaka atau apa.

mula berfikir.
tentang diri.
dimana bekal yang dibawa.
belum tentu cukup.
tapi masih hanyut.

ah
aku belum sedia.
untuk  itu.

lost purpose

*keluar dari kepompong berlendir dalam keadaan telanjang*

siapa aku?

mana aku?

definasi

masalah nak approach orang macam dia ni.
kewujudan macam hantu.
entah wujud entah tidak.
bluerghhhh.

definasikan rasa ini
oh tuhan
aku harap ia benar
sebab aku masih buta
untuk kenal kaca dan berlian

trolololololololololo