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ada apa dengan pokok pisang?



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them

apa yang awesome?bila masuk ke ruang tersebut,dan bunyi bising memenuhi ruang,si polan hayun tangan dan kaki mengikut rentak muzik.kepala mengangguk-angguk.semua turut menyanyi bersama.lari pusing bersama-sama.ada yang dilambung lambung. dan pelbagai karenah dipapar dalam satu tempoh itu.


apa yang tak awesome?its about time to say goodbye to them.




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tupai

peribahasa ada sebut "sepandai pandai tupai melompat akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga"

hari ni aku tengok seekor tupai mati jatuh kena gilis dengan kereta.apa boleh buat.jatuh atas jalan raya.yang kau mengada nak lompat jauh jauh buat apa.hahahahah




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kepala hotak

pecah kebuntuan.dengan apa?pergi warung Kak Midah,kau hulur 50sen.kau akan dapat pertukaran dengan sebatang winston.

pasal duit baik jangan kau main tahi.rumah kau aku dah tahu,silap hari bulan kena kau dengan member aku(bukan aku).bukan apa.kena jadi lebih berhati-hati.nanti sendiri gigit jari.

kerja makin banyak.masuk kelas keluar kelas kepala hotak masih kosong.kat mana salahnya pon tak tahu.haiihh.member tak habis habis ulang ayat: "i've been raped by my homework!".ayat tu mula makan diri.anggap semua jadi beban.niat dah berubah.Ya Allah,kuatkan lah diri ni dalam perjalanan hidup bergelar seorang pelajar.mula risau prestasi menurun.hujung minggu ligat kesana sini.haduihhh.

masih buntu.rokok dinyala.sedutan pertama ditarik dalam dalam.rasa sedap didada.lepas ni kena singgah warung Kak Midah lagi.masalah bersarang dalam kepala hotak.



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nasib baik baucer sini boleh cashkan.hewwww!




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institutionalized

Sometimes I try to do things but it just doesn't work out the way I want it to, and I get real frustrated and then like I try hard to do it, and I like, take my time but it just doesn't work out the way I want it to. It's like, I concentrate on it real hard, but it just doesn't work out. And everything I do and everything I try, it never turns out. It's like, I need time to figure these things out, but there's always someone there going “hey mike, you know we've been noticing you've been having a lot of problems lately, you know? You need to maybe get away. And like, maybe you should talk about it, you'll feel a lot better.” And I'm all like “oh, nah, it's ok, you know. I'll figure it out. Just leave me alone, I'll figure it out, you know? I'm just working on it by myself.” And they go “well, you know, if you wanna talk about it, I'll be here, you know? And you'll probably feel a lot better if you talk about it. So why don't you talk about it?” I go “no, I don't want to! I'm ok. I'll figure it out myself!” But they just keep bugging me, they just keep bugging me, and it builds up inside.

So you're gonna be institutionalized.
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes. 
You won't have anything to say.
They'll brainwash you until you see their way. 

I'm not crazy - IN AN INSTITUTION!!!
You're the one that's crazy - IN AN INSTITUTION!!!
You're driving me crazy - IN AN INSTITUTION!!!

They stuck me in an institution,
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help to protect me from the enemy, myself.

I was in my room and I was just like staring at the wall thinking about everything, but then again I was thinking about nothing. And then my mom came in, and I didn't even know she was there. She called my name and I didn't hear her and then she started screaming “Mike, Mike!” And I go “what? What's the matter?” She goes “what's the matter with you?” I go “there's nothing wrong, mom.” Shes all “don't tell me that! You're on drugs!” I go “no mom, I'm not on drugs. I'm ok, I'm just thinking, you know? Why don't you get me a Pepsi?” She goes “No! You're on drugs!” I go “mom, I'm ok. I'm just thinking.” She goes “No! You're not thinking, you're on drugs! Normal people don't be acting that way!” I go “mom, just get me a Pepsi! Please, all I want is a Pepsi!” And she wouldn't give it to me! All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me! Just a Pepsi!

They give you a white shirt with long sleeves!
Tied around your back, you're treated like thieves! 
Drug you up because they're lazy!
It's too much work to help a crazy!

I'm not crazy - IN AN INSTITUTION!!!
You're the one who's crazy - IN AN INSTITUTION!!!
You're driving me crazy - IN AN INSTITUTION!!!

They stuck me in an institution,
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help, to protect me from the enemy, myself.

I'm sitting in my room, when my mom and my dad came in. they pulled up a chair and they sat down. They go “mike, we need to talk to you.” And I go “ok, what's the matter?” They go “me and your mom, we've noticed that lately you've been having a lot of problems, and you've been going off for no reason, and we're afraid you're going to hurt somebody, and we're afraid you're going to hurt yourself. So we decided that it would be in your best interest if we put you somewhere where you could get the help that you need.” And I go “wait, what are you talking about, WE decided? MY best interests? How do you know what MY best interest is? How can you say what MY best interest is? What are you trying to say? I'M crazy? When I went to YOUR schools, I went to YOUR churches, I went to YOUR institutional learning facilities? So how can you say I'M crazy?”

They say they're gonna fix my brain.
Alleviate my suffering and my pain. 
But by the time they fix my head,
Mentally I'll be dead.

I'm not crazy - IN AN INSTITUTION!!!
You're the one who's crazy - IN AN INSTITUTION!!!
You're driving me crazy - IN AN INSTITUTION!!!

They stuck me in an institution,
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help, to protect me from the enemy, myself.

Doesn't matter, I'll probably get hit by a car anyways.




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fake!

nampak beza kawan dengan lawan.tapi takpa.aku main ikut cara kau main. #fake smile

pernah tak rasa dulu kau jumpa seseorang tak menarik langsung and somehow,selepas sekian lama tak jumpa,dia jadi hotstuff.haha,aku tak pernah lagi jumpa macam tu.mungkin sebab kawankawan aku memang huduh dari kecil. *hikhikhik

tak perlu lah kau nak berkawan ikut taste;kacak,cantik,berduit,or so what ever.aku benci orang macam tu.depan lain belakang lain.aku ingat selepas apa yang berlaku kau boleh bukak mata sikit tapi kau tetap bodoh macam dulu.go fuck yourself lah kawan.

last but not least.hayati lirik ni.

call me a friend but you stab me in the back
you pretend we get along it's all just an act
you always use people to get what you need
you take advantage of others to satisfy your greed

we don't need you, you fuckin' scum
hope that friends like you will never come
when things turn bad for you don't count on me
cause i'll turn my back on you as you did to me

we don't need friends like you [x4]

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12.01.2012 karut bin marut

lama tak update mak melah ni.sekarang rasa janggal nak menulis balik.2012 mula melangkah dengan perlahan     meninggalkan 2011 yang banyak berlangsung peristiwa yang mungkin aku akan kenang.kira macam babak klimax dalam sesebuah cerita.2012 harap menjadi satu titik tolak untuk menjadi lebih baik dari tahun-tahun lepas.2012 juga bakal menyaksikan album baru Your Demise-The Golden Age bakal keluar kalau tak silap bulan februari ni.heheh.

*2012!be nice to me!

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